:: In my own little corner ::

:: October 16, 2002 ::

I don't think I am going to keep using this .... bc I was just yelled at about some stuff that I wrote..... I'm feeling rlly bad about it right now .... and well .... I hope I never get this feeling again ..... and if I have to censor what i write or have to worry about ppl spreading it around to ppl then why bother writing ..........
I may change my mind ... but right now .... I feel horrid
:: Tall Girl 2:04:00 PM [+] ::
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Hello everyone
I'm back ....... you know ... I still wonder if anyone actually reads this .... oh well *shrugs* .... I spent an hr outside today .... and for awhile i found myself starring at the sky and then at the grass .... just thinking about things ... the world ... people .... future .... I dont know what it is ... but I'm finding that .... everything nowadays amazes me ... a blade of grass ... a stone .... people ... places ... I don't know ... everything just seems to make me stop and think .....

:: Tall Girl 10:13:00 PM [+] ::
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Hello ...
Today was ... today ..... my friend Erin was (is) over ... and we have just been hanging out and stuff .... we spent 15minutes playing with plastic spoons ... and another while outside playing with our shadows ( I look like humpty dumpty) .... now if that doesn't scare you I don't know what will ... lmao .... now we are sitting in my room ....
I'll come back later when I have some more time
:: Tall Girl 5:13:00 PM [+] ::
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My weekend ... was stressful .....
Be back later or tomorrow

:: Tall Girl 10:10:00 PM [+] ::
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I just got back from Lindsay's party ... it was really fun .... but some ppl rlly need to learn how to share ... lmao ..... OMG .. okay ... We played on the trampoline for like ever .... it was so awesome .... you've never seen a big girl bounce so high ... seriously ... it was awesome ..... after i got off I tried jumping on land ... I dont suggest doing that ... bc it feels rlly weird .... also .... you may feel rlly weird afterwards .... LIKE ME ... i am so dizzy and stuff .... it's crazy .........
Well that's it for now ...... I'm rlly hoping my gf signs online ..... I haven't talked to her for like a day *tear* ....
:: Tall Girl 11:36:00 PM [+] ::
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I'm tired ... I think after I eat my yogurt ... i'm going to bed *nods*
:: Tall Girl 11:10:00 PM [+] ::
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I'm happy again
I don't know what triggered it ... lmao .... I had to run over to the mall to buy stuff to decorate Lindsay's locker .... I found balloons, wrapping paper and a card .... and get this ... THEY ALL MATCH .... who's the master .... that's right .... ME .... I love buying presents and decoratings and organizing stuff ...... I'm so weird ...
:: Tall Girl 9:22:00 PM [+] ::
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LMAO
The last one sounded too negative ..... I'm not in a horrid mood ... but I can tell you I am rdy to burst .... I seem to get like this a lot ..... and I dont rlly understand what is wrong with me ........ I can happy one day and depressed the next ..... crazyness .....
On another note ..... I am such a freak ..... okay ... there is this girl I think is cute at school .... and since my girlfriend is so far away .... I like watch her and everything .... and up until today I haven't said a word to her .... my friend Nimisha is on yr book with her and had to ask her something ... AND YA ... I was there and spoke to her ... for all of 5 seconds ..
By the way ... if you people didn't know .... I'm a lesbian ..... but I have this belief that everyone is bisexual ... they just identify differently ... it's my own opinion ... so ya ..... but I'm rlly excited bc Nov 9 is my 2 yr anni of coming out .... I'm rlly proud of myself .... also my 2months with my gf is coming up ......... nvm it's in 2weeks ... exactly ... lol
Well I'm going to go have a nap so ya .........
I'll be back lates ................. Does anyone actually read this ?????.... hmmmm
:: Tall Girl 4:49:00 PM [+] ::
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So .... today was a really crappy day ... I don't know why ... but something set me off and ... yea ... it just went downhill from there.... I think it was bc I got into a fight with my friend .... it wasnt anything too big ... I mean things are ok now .... but what bugs me is she doesnt talk about things ... she doesnt tell you when shes mad, upset, happy, angry ..... and it is reallt frusterating ... I mean she expects me to help and everything .... but what the hell am I supposed to do??? ....The thing is ... it isn't just me that gets frusterated .. but most ppl do .... I mean ... she wont even give her opinion on things ..... She needs to learn how to talk and everything ... bc this is going to hurt her in the long run .... and if you are thinking ... try talking to her .... I already did .... but how the heck am I supposed to solve the problem asking the person with the problem .... I mean .... she doesn't seem to care or what not ..... See I'm getting angry right now ......... I am a good listener, friend .... and anything else you can think of .... I am the one ppl can talk to, confide in, relate to .... and other things ... I'm not trying to sound all mighty ... but I'm just trying to say it takes a lot to get me angry and everything .........
:: Tall Girl 4:40:00 PM [+] ::
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WOO HOO!!!!!!!!!
Mom has left the building and I have the house to myself ... E is online .... A friend is supposed to call later on .... So I'd say it looks like it is going to be a great night ....
:: Tall Girl 7:22:00 PM [+] ::
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So yea,
Finally I have a night to myself .... I don't have to worry about homework and crap .... *phew* ... I just hope mom goes out so I can have the place to myself ... I could use some me time ....
:: Tall Girl 4:29:00 PM [+] ::
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I'm taking a quick break ..... I seriously feel like I'm not accomplishing anything ........ and that i'm so far behind ... when rlly it's just World Issues and English Literature I have to finish up ........ Oh well ... nobody is talking to me online so it makes it worse ...... bc now I feel like nobody likes me .... when I know that's not true (how gr 2 did that sound) ..... *sings Norah Jones* ....
I was so excited for Thanksgiving ... but now I'm not ......... I love holidays and the feelings leading up to them .... but the day of is what I dread ... bc reality finally sinks in and I realize just how much things have changed ...... Like my family used to go to Black Creek Pioneer Village every year until my grandfather died .... and ever since we haven't gone ... nor does the family get together as a whole anymore ..... and it is things like that that bug me ..... I mean can't ppl push there differences aside for a day ........ I mean especially family ......... I really hope dad doesn't call or anything ..... he keeps doing that and saying he is going to get money or what not to me .... but has he yet ... OF COURSE NOT ...... My birthday, back to school, yata yata yata .... I mean isn't it enough he doesnt help mom by paying child support .... argh ...
I don't want to think of that ..... I'd rather think of ..... things could be different this yr bc ..... ppl in my family probably have a better respect for life and have so much to be thankful for .........
I'm reflecting on the past year and I'm amazed of all that has happened ..... it is quite remarkable .... I'm surprised and proud of how I handled things .... and I really am proud of some members of the family .... they really endured a lot .... with ... yea .... Not only the major things but the minor aswell ... I mean they all add up in the end ......
gtg somebody is talking to me ... lol

:: Tall Girl 9:55:00 PM [+] ::
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I have to write an essay for tomorrow ... for the archetype of the "evil stepmother" .... blah .... I rlly don't feel like it ...... I'd rather just go to sleep ....... talk to somebody .... or see a movie (lol ... I rlly do) ..... but everyone seems to be busy and unable to talk :o( .... so yea .... I'm stuck here ... all alone writing my oh so boring essay ..... if only I had chocolate to make me hyper or something .........
:: Tall Girl 8:18:00 PM [+] ::
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Another school day is over ..... blah .... you know I really do love school .... just I hate that feeling you get when about 5 billion things are due ... I dunno ..... that's just me .... I guess it doesn't help when i always wait till the LAST SECOND to do anything .. lol
My day was pretty good .... but there are a couple of things that I just can't seem to get out of my head .... they shouldn't rlly be bugging me ... but they are a bit ..... it isn't anything MAJOR MAJOR ..... um ... lol ... I'm so confusing sometimes
I was actually pretty hyper today ... thanx to the chunky kit kat bar I ate .... he he .... I also had grad photos this morning .... ooo how fun ...
I rlly just feel like going to a movie or something .... bu ....t A. I don't have anyone to go with (Erin's at the dentist) B. my money is with Erin C. I have work to do ........ I guess I'll just have to wait until another day ..... blah .....
I'm going to go eat ... I'll be back later bc there are some things i want to write about ....

:: Tall Girl 4:07:00 PM [+] ::
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